head tattoos n stuff

I got my head tattooed today!



 It's the first of three sessions so far. The other side of my head will have this image mirrored, the rest of my head will have bugs and beetles, and the colors will be rainbow across the head. (I already had the leopard print on the side of the face.)

I'm really surprised at how much it DIDN'T hurt, tbh. I watched an episode of Charmed (2018) during it lmao. It was my least painful tattoo, I'd say it was about… 4.5 out of 10? My chest and wrist hurt WAYYY more, the most painful part of it was lying down on a tiny tattoo table for like 5 hours, lmao. My artist was shocked and said he had never seen anyone take a head tattoo that well. It also isn't sore at all; I fell asleep on that side when I got home and it feels fine. I touch it and it feels fine. I'm starting to think I have no nerves on my head :p

Anyway… what else? Hm. I bought wigs from Arda Wings — pink and green (my favorite color scheme if you couldn't tell). I've always wanted hair long enough to braid so this will be fun, plus I can just detach it whenever I want to like a fashion doll or something.

I'm getting pretty tired of being tired, tbh. I keep having SUCH a fucked up sleep schedule and it's making me go a little insanecrazy. It's just that being awake at night is the only time I ever feel truly “safe”, because growing up it was only safe when certain people were asleep and now I cannot stop subconsciously associating late late nights with safety, and that person has been dead for… 8 years on the eighteenth, actually. Thank God.

But it makes me feel so isolated from everyone else, when I can't spend time with my loved ones, because I'm asleep all the time..

Oooh!! I developed a new feature for otwarchive; status updates! Someone else can probably code it way better than me (e.g. the css sucks, it doesn't use partials, etc.), but I'm so so genuinely PROUD of myself. I did it like 2 days after making my Ruby on Rails blog. (If you want a live example, you can check it out at Symphony). There's also a basic timeline view. I'm putting it on Sunset around the 14th or so. I really hope it doesn't cause controversy….