====== Recent Stuff Early November 2025 ======



{{tag>personal tech otwarchive fandom}}
I've been focused on self-hosting quite a bit; I got another instance of otwarchive up, at {{https://symphony.anteater.monster/|Symphony}}, which is multifandom and for my friends/friends of friends. It's got a music-themed shtick, so hits are now plays, kudos is now applause, etc. I am planning to put all the fic I've ever written on there, which will take a While. and I'm hoping to self-host the DW code eventually. I run a Haven instance right now for pro-fiction stuff, but it's pretty dead, so I want to upgrade it. I am maybe a little bit too into computers, the hyperfixation is never-ending, lmao. I also want to learn Ruby, yes I know about the horrors but I want to do some new features that AO3 doesn't have and in order to do that I gotta learn shit. I love self-hosting, it's fun to work on and SO rewarding when you finally fix the errors and Make The Thing Run.

I'm a little scared right now because on a recent routine eye doctor visit, my pressures were rather high, and there were signs of some optic nerve damage. That combined with a big family history of glaucoma concerned my doctor and I'm trying to get into a specialist now to determine what's wrong. AND. I have a bad feeling about this. Like, yeah it's treatable when detected early, but I'm 24. Does it being early onset mean any difference for the course of the disease than it does for people who develop it with age? Do I even have it? I don't want to lose my sight, but it seems to be getting worse. I'm already antimetropic, I don't need any more weird eye conditions, thank you! I can't get into the ophthalmologist until March, and man, the anxiety is neverending. Every day my eye hurts. Help.

I've been playing LOTS of Palia recently and I fell in love with Elouisa all over again so I added her to my f/o list on here. It's getting pretty long and I'm thinking of making an extended version… I just love her, she reminds me so much of myself, AND her relationship with Caleri is literally gut-wrenching. Palia is so fun. I'm currently trying to get through Elouisa's second(???) third??? I can't remember, one of the friendship quests. It's hard because it's the one where you have to catch 5 rare fish and well… catching fish is the most difficult thing for me in this game. I just do not have the motor skills needed!!! Help!!! But it's so fun and addictive. I also love that they just added an animal husbandry skill. I've been naming my pekis (chickens) after Orville characters…

I've been having lots of nightmares lately because of my new blood pressure med. It seems like every night I go to sleep and after that I'm being hunted down. Sleep is one of my worst triggers, if not my worst :/ even WITHOUT nightmares, so it's been extra hard. But the med really helps, so…

I signed up for courses at my local community college for next Spring. I don't know if I'm actually going to do it but I wanted to be registered in case. I mean, it's... the goal. I'm working as hard as I possibly can to get to a point where I can handle school. And I hope that "a point where I can handle school" is a point I'm actually capable of reaching! I am so so so bored every single day of my life. I have nothing to do besides fandom exchanges and I watch everyone I grew up with move on to jobs and degrees and I just have... nothing to do that feels really meaningful. I love running Sunset I love self-hosting and trying to be a part of fandom and make it a better place,, but it's still just fandom lol. 

Also I shaved my head and I'm getting it tattooed on the 12th. I'm so deeply glad I shaved my head, I'm never going back to having hair <3

CupcakKe released a new album, the BakKery, and that's been on constant repeat, especially Ballerina Coupe, Alcoholic, and UFO.

Recent updates to the site:

  * I added more to my digital garden under recipes and tech
  * I added a link to my AO3 html templates on Github in the for you section
  * More fandom badges!!

Things to do

  * <todo>Make OC pages</todo>
  * <todo>Add More Sections to Digital Garden</todo>



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